It is occurring to me that I’m handling the injury to my ankle (skydiving accident 1/16/2011) really well. No animosity or anger of any substance in response to the injury. Not a huge amount of fear about the outcome. I know it will heal and I know what to expect from surgery. Having been this way before on my hand (first surgery and very scary) and again on my knee, twice (also scary, but provided huge relief and a second chance at mobility) is fueling a positive outlook. It is helpful for me to “know” what these things are like.
The thing that is also occurring to me is that there is much of life that we can only go through once or that we go through so seldom that we don’t generate enough tangible experience to have the sense that we “know” it will turn out to be ok in the long run. Can I replace that sense of “not knowing” that results from having never been this way before (the entirety of this lifetime) with the sense of knowing it will turn out to be just fine? Can I live in the logic that as it is in the micro, so it is in the macro? If I can know that other injuries have turned out to yield great rewards, can I apply that feeling to a life that is often frustrating and disappointing in order to know that all of it will turn out perfectly well?
I think that’s possible. More training. Let’s give this a try.